Monday, April 18, 2011

Voluntary Breathing

One of the most dangerous tendencies one can have is to create expectations. Without a doubt they are always incorrect, to some degree or other, and have the potential to make one feel like they have fallen short or the experience has. Maybe this isn’t something that others do quite so often, but for me it is constant. It is part of my wiring, a natural consequence of dreaming and scheming grandiose and na├»ve plans that are inevitably doomed to fall short into the pool of reality. I guess you could say that I am drowning in it.

I so very want to be……? Well I don’t really know. I’m fairly good at project management, event planning, and brainstorming. I like, no wait, I need other people involved in work that I am doing so that I can enjoy it, so that I can be grounded, and so that I can be inspired to continue it until completion. It’s not so much about the “what” for me in terms of career path. It’s more about what I am joining, i.e. movement, a company’s vision, or a project’s goal. I got to believe baby! I

know there is going to be times in my life, the majority, where I am not actively involved in something that is ground-breaking or historically momentous, but I will always be on the lookout. Or, maybe the trick is to treat everything like it is. Do or die. Sink or swim. Breathe because you've spent the last molecule of oxygen in your body for your cause or do so because your body just does it on its own, even if you're comatose. I’m going to be turning this idea over the next couple days.